would say I don’t know why I waited so long but I know why, I wasn’t ready. And you know what, I’ve been thinking, and this whole thing is a major victory. MAJOR.
I went into a sustained period of low motivation…as in months and months, maybe even more than a year, of not feeling it. And what’s the worst thing that happened? I went 15 pounds over my goal weight and lost a lot of fitness. Totally. Manageable.
What didn’t happen? I didn’t slip into a totally sedentary lifestyle and I didn’t give up and eat a bunch of crap on a regular basis. In other words, I didn’t fall off the wagon into an all-is-lost, who cares anyway?, denial state of mind. I didn’t stop weighing myself, I didn’t hide from the issue, I didn’t lie to myself and pretend it wasn’t happening. That’s what would have happened in my old life, that’s what DID happen in my old life. But no more. Now, I can go through a rough patch and keep it sort-of together. I am choosing to give myself a HUGE pat-on-the-back for coming out of this with just a little catch-up work to do but no major renovation. YAY!!
I’ll close with a few pictures. I made this blackened chicken salad with low-fat blue cheese, avocado, tomato and cucumber (no dressing) last night for dinner with my buddy Michelle. We got to hang out, catch up and enjoy this feast of a meal.
